Guilt. It Sucks.

Well, not really scrap related, but I needed to vent, so...my bloggie it is!

I'm feeling guilty tonight over stuff I shouldn't feel guilty over. Stuff that is/was out of my control. Stuff that might not even be my fault. or that of my family, but I am shouldering the guilt anyway, which makes me mad. And that mix of mad and guilt is so stinking pleasant.

See, here's the deal. We went to my nephew's birthday party on Saturday. Everyone was fine. We all felt okay. Lots of kids, lots of strangers (well, lots of my sister's friends, who are basically strangers to us), none of whom any of us got particularly friendly with. Seriously. I had to practically force my nephew to hug me. Didn't hold my neice, and neither did my DH. And we sure as heck didn't touch the kids of the people we didn't know.

So, Sunday, DH didn't feel well. And Monday morning he felt HORRIBLE and went to the ER, where he was diagnosed with Influenza A. None of the rest of us are sick (yet?), and we are ALL now on Tamiflu. But I got on Facebook tonight to see this conversation:

Person X wants to know who gave me this cold. They're going down.
9 hours ago · Comment ·LikeUnlike

Person Y Oh no!
Child A has a fever today and Child B was coughing a lot last night- was anyone at the party sick?
7 hours ago

Person X Not sure if anyone was sick, maybe someone was just starting something or getting over something and still contagious. Child C had a fever & headache last night, too. Could be the changing weather, too, I suppose...... Bummer. Hope your boys are better soon!
6 hours ago

Dude. I don't think it can be blamed on us. But I feel like it's all our fault. And I'm waiting for my sister to totally put all the blame on us. Nobody should have been exposed and have it incubate so quickly. AND all of those people have small children and should have had the seasonal flu shot. Of course, we should have as well, but with Lili being sick so often, I never felt like we had a good time to do hers, and then Aerin and I fell through the cracks too. So maybe they're just like us. And Brian infected them all. Or not.

it just makes me have this nasty knot of guilt in my stomach. ew ew ew.

Anyway. I guess I should go scrap this nasty feeling or something. Get some scrap therapy going. I think I need it.